Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Getting There





Office life isn't mundane.
It's like a mind-field of tunnels.

There's always one way to get to the next tunnel, or a secret passageway, or a forgotten shortcut, old and rusty, that you could still use.

I recently interviewed a female intern for our engineering team. I'm quite excited about this. This is, I think, the 2nd or 3rd time I've encountered a female engineering graduate for application, and it makes me proud.

The majority are men, as a matter of fact. Although I am just as proud to have male interns for the engineering department, there's definitely a different feeling at the thought of having more females in the team as well.

So far, the girls in the office come from either the administrative or the human resource departments. Perhaps to get male applicants for these departments would be an exciting trend for the office as well!

The more the merrier!

I do hope the same applies to incoming projects! That would be suuuper lovely!

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

new blog: the thought runner

I practically want to bang my head lately.

It's not like I'm an heir to a business empire. I work for the family business, and when times get rough, and I find myself smack in between, or worse, somewhere in the corner, holding a pen and paper with disheveled hair, I think to myself how much can I take.

Powerlessness is the shittiest feeling in the world. One of the. I get that now, now more than ever.

When you can't even begin to point your finger at something that's causing you pain, for me, that's the time alarm bells start ringing and the call of the beach singing sweetly to me, like some temporary remedy, or a band-aid to a gunshot.

There is no running here. Only facing things and dealing with problems head-on.

I want to be an honest writer, at least in my blog. Something I could basically share about my life. Something true.
I have always feared of readers who know me and understand details of my life, which is why I would actually prefer the eyes of a stranger.

So reader, if you know me, be a stranger to this blog, and treat me like a fleeting thought, a thought runner.







Monday, October 1, 2012

New Shoes Please

Definitely aiming to update my shoedrobe. In need of updated shoewear is all; I don't know of tjis is ironic, but I'm hearting these classic pieces: a pair of red high-heeled patent pumps, some oxford flats, and then a strappy version of the mary janes.<3

Behind the Scenes 1 for Saludares-Hari nuptials!

<3 Sukatan na!!!

Unfortunately I forgot to assign someone to take snapshots of me when I was being measured.:p

So all I got were some shots of the seamstress with one of the flowergils and her lovely lovely mum.<3

Rock On!

Was playing with the shadows on the wall the other night.XD

Octoberfest! Hullo!!!

So I just came back from updating my blog from a long hiatus.
Thing is I'm not very good at updating happenings in my life online unless I plan to go Anonymous.:))) But I'm tryin again now.

In truth, I just came from a recent break-up, and it annoys me that it takes something so eventful to push me to write again. Or blog.

*Sigh. Big sigh* :))) I'm glad nonetheless.

Octoberfest marks the coming of the end of a year, and I find it very exciting. It's a time for a lot of changes for me. And I'll work hard to make them good changes.

My girlfriends and I will be drinking the. night away at the 27th, so I miGht post some pics about that.

For now, hello again blogger's world. It feels good to come back.:***

The Late Game

The late game is a game of belatedness.
It's one of those give it all or none concepts, and I'm playing this in my life right now.
Let's see how this works out.
First stop: food.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Back from the States!!!!!!


First, hello!!!!!!!


Shame, Shame---It's been more than a month since I last made an entry.

And so...well if anyone bothered remembering my so-called promises before I left for the States, I actually failed to accomplish that..

Not that this would compensate since the last promise had something to do with making an entry while I was still in California, which made the commitment more appealing. But since I'm back in MLA, it seems I could only recount and share of the happening when it is entirely done.

How did California look to me?

I gotta say... for over a decade, San Francisco, more specifically, looked a lot different. It had a lot to do with the fact that I'm 10 years older since I last stepped foot in America, so perception as a pre-adolescent compared to that of an adolescent could make it drastic. But reality is reality, what you see is the evident. Some of the things I noticed, in terms of change, which I liked were the following:

1. Californians are more conscious of their figures than a decade ago.

When I was in America 10 years ago (also for a short vacation), obesity was prominent.
Fast forward to ten years later, I think I was the obese person in the crowd. I remember thinking loud and clearly, 'I wasn't alone before...', now I thought, 'I'm left behind! I'm left behind!'

:))) So much for perception. But I'm honestly glad that the Americans are changing their lifestyle and have been setting the trend for healthy living. Even in the commercials, I noticed that food conglomerates have been counting calories and are supporting the need for a 'controlled intake'. Going organic, and minding the calories is the big thing these days. At least more so, compared to what I saw 10 years ago.

2. San Francisco is still lovely as ever

In fact, it's gotten better. I don't know if it has something to do with the ever-growing and healthy Filipino community, or the fact that --alright let me just say it-- white people could communicate with us with a more pronounced equality. Before, when we would walk by the street, white people in general ignored our presence. These days there's always an exchanged 'hi' or 'hello' or 'good morning' matched with a genuine smile. The over-all ambiance is more 'accepting'. From the theaters, to the malls, to the parks and restaurants; I could feel the acceptance, the acknowledgment, that normalcy that came with comfort.

These 2 points are the most prominent that I noticed recently. I feel a little more content, knowing that my relatives abroad are respected and acknowledged.

One other observation, but it may have been the case since more than 10 years ago (which I have no proof of except if it is verified by other observers, especially those who reside in San Fo), is that the Chinese community is also growing very rapidly in California. In San francisco, most of my relatives' neighbours are Chinese. I noticed that a lot of them still keep to themselves and don't 'open up' unlike other immigrants. I don't know the level of insecurity, or perhaps none of it, the level of discrimination, or again, perhaps none of it, with regard to the Chinese who lives in California but I see them, and they were, in general, very quiet. Was it language barrier? Cultural difference? If I try to compare their possible difficulty with how it was for Filipinos many years back, was it the same? Is their adjustment period more difficult, just as, slightly, or no difficulty at all?
I don't know but I'm only guessing, that a 'cultural over-all attitude' could be the case (ie. the assumption that the Chinese family, as a conservative and family-centered community, makes them depend amongst themselves. This being a more (or most) important responsibility while they reside in the U.S. -- than engaging with individuals outside their community.)

More importantly, the communities jived just fine. They just don't mingle a lot amongst each other in a frequent and regular basis. Maybe that's the 'utopia' I'm wishing for the States. I'm not even American, but because I have loved ones who live there, it's imperative that their environment is one that regards its residents with warmth, respect and acknowledgment. For sure, their children who will learn the American language would have, ideally, bigger chances of being able to communicate more effectively and openly amongst each other, due to the same generation, likely similar preferences and ideals. Definitely school will play a big part. Integral. May it be public or private.

So ten years from now... I wonder. :)





















Thursday, May 3, 2012

Waiting at the NAIA Airport

So far so great.
Ever since stepping into the airport at NAIA, it's been a smooth flow, except for the moments my mom would relentlessly nag me about requirements. Which is totally understandable.

I haven't set foot in San Francisco for more than 10 years now. My little cousins aren't so little anymore, but they were here just last year, so I could count on familiarity.

I'm left by myself in the lounge at the moment so I'm cherishing the process so far.

There's a lot of people at the Mabuhay Lounge. I'm fascinated by the difference of those who can afford the lounge, and those who cannot.
This is my first time by the way, so it's not like I'm used to being here.

The best part of course, is the free WiFi, although there is free WiFi, too, outside the lounge, no one around could seem to get hold of the connection (I could hear them complaining about the signal).

But here, it's all good, and I could relax on a sofa (barefoot) and observe Filipinos and foreigners who wait for their respective flights.

An entire family sits across. Casually attired. Daughters. Happy parents. Lone fliers snack on either alcohol or diet soda. A few sandwiches.

The rest are satisfied half-sleeping on their chairs, reading the newspapers, or talking to their loved ones over the mobile in hushed tones.

Over-all, it's pretty laid back.

It would be awesome if everyone had access to this kind of privilege. Everyone could eat the free special champorado. The free pasta. The free mini sandwiches. The free sushi. THE FREE BREWED COFFEE.

That's wishful thinking for me.

But nonetheless, I feel grateful.


Monday, April 30, 2012

To The Beach!!!


There was another highlight that took place this April, which should’ve been part of my April Recap. However it’s not like I intend to make a recap of all the happenings each month. Rather, I only neglected to update my blog as soon as the event ended, and I have to say I wasn’t able to expound on each happening as I would’ve truly wanted to.

But this event, felt a bit of a milestone, at least amongst my friends with whom I spent it with, that I rather dedicate an entire entry for this. It’s actually a rarity for all three of us to make something like this possible, and believe me, when we ‘got there’, that was one of the most ‘impossible’ things I've gotten myself into. So much so, I’m not sure if I can divulge of the details (which is in fact the purpose of this sole blog entry!) :D unfortunately, I think I should get there approval first.

All I can say is that I have never met such an amazing events organizer such as Madeline Castillo, and my true-to-life-perhaps-soon-or-far-to-be-maid-of-honour, Arceli Flores, who both lighted up my life ever since we were younger, and continued to inspire me, guide me, love me until today. And I hope, throughout all my tomorrows.

Madz babe, thank you for the acting lesson in our ride back home. I suuuuuuper loved it! I would think about it every now and then and pick up your tips and advices whenever I feel like I should bring my act on!

Arce babe, you’re one heck of a long-distance driver. Thank you for being the ‘captain of the ship’ while your passengers caused havoc behind and beside you ;’D

Beware. The pictures can be very suggestive. Note that we took caution while taking them.

:)))))))





(L-R: Me, Madz, Arce)



































































For me, the ride getting to Batangas was the most precious part of our day out. You could just imagine the flood of info exchanged amongst three childhood friends, eager and excited to share our recent and not-so recent happenings. Combine that with two-way driving, there's bound to be suspense and action!

One of the best parts of the day, was being someone's someone again. And that was awesome! To use the idea, was spectacular. It's weird this person was able to help us in that way, but it worked out just fine and I feel I'm obliged to say my thanks. Te-hee! Whaddya think, Madz, Arce? :))) <3

Still, we had a good swim (Madz and I) and Arce had her brief stroll at the beach. The pictures she took could speak for our scenic location :) (pictures down, down, below)

A slight detour for a comfy lunch before we headed to LAIA, we opted for Madz's recommendation: Liam's! <3




(Madz! What do we call this super yummy dish again??!)



(Longganisa and Egg for Arce)



(And my ever-breakfast favourite: TapSilog!)



I love that somehow, Batangas still has so many things to offer to tourists, particularly local, despite the changes of the entire beach. According to Madz,

We were actually aiming for Acuatico, but the entire resort was booked for a wedding!
Formerly, we wanted to go there, but I guess that would be another time...

AND WHEN ONE OF US GETS MARRIED THERE! BOY!! OH WE SHALL HAVE A GOOD LAUGH!!!





(I was not bold enough to have my picture taken standing up like my girls! I'm afraid I'm still insecure of my figure, which I've yet to succeed in 'toning up'.) :)) <3


(This is actually me and Madz!) <3


(Arce's lovely fingers framing this wonderful shore!) :)))


(Yep, this was where we bathed. <3 Shucks, Madz. BATHED)







I love you, two. Two of my most precious!
<3<3<3

Keep me in your memory always! And let's always hope for the only best!

















- Gepe
<3

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

An April Recap



My summer so far, have consisted in my so-called basic indulgences such as sleeping late, watching DVDs upon DVDs, eating Brunches (that I've lost track the last time I ate a decent hearty breakfast) and then the occasional mani-pedi, and massages.
Then again the last two may not be as basic for everyone else, I suppose, and for the last, not even for myself...)

But point being, it has been pretty much laid-back.

I've made some calls and talked to people from school, so it's my way of ensuring that I still get to go back to Grad School by June, and basically April is the month of sloth-ing for me.

I actually hate as much as I admit it, but it has its own perks. (The sloth-ing, I mean.)

As of the last two days, I've obliged myself to wake up earlier than usual, hence the hearty breakfast is slowly getting back on track.

For other accomplishments, April has been the month of sentimental events for me, ranging from a celebrated cultural feast we call Pabasa, to quaint garden weddings, and even a 'small-range' despedida party (and I call it small because it was a party of three!)

Throwing a sort of small despedida party for a german friend of mine, Pia Puchner, and spending it with the uber foxy Kristinne Felix. (Both are comrades from The Ateneo, having met in our General Psychology class.) We watched Battleship in Trinoma! And boy, you just gotta love the hint of humor here and there. (Coincidentally, I recently just watched 'Fright Night, and although this is a random thought--but not so random--I notice that humor gets into every other genre, may it be a gory horror flick, or an action-packed one such as the Battleship. Really wins the audience over--kinda gives it life actually. I'm starting to dig films like this more and more. And the chick flicks have been down with the romance + humor formula for so long, seeing it in another genres apart from romance is so damn refreshing. Just wanted to share!) :)))))

Then after indulging our eyes with beefy hunks, we now changed our direction to a drinking session, well-fit for our friend who's bound to fly back home in less that 24 hours from that point. (L-R: Pia, me, Tin)



















Her leaving was a rather sentimental note for me. Like waking up the next morning and realizing a good friend was already across the other side of the world, and that I may not see her anymore. Still Kristine was adamant we'll get there someday, after we 'establish' ourselves successfully. See Tin!! I used your word! ESTABLISHED!
(Note: it's very difficult for Filipinos to get their visas approved. Almost all embassies assume that we're there to stay and marry off a white guy and never return. Not all of us are like that. Some of us just want to visit friends and get back with our lives in MLA. But apparently not a lot of the consuls get that. By the way, my Schengen visa was rejected under the grounds of,
'She is young, single, unmarried, have no children, have no land or property to her name, an administrative assistant earning ***** per month.' And let us just say that ***** is not enough for their approval.)

Still, Kristine has a point. Someday, when I do have a land or property to my name, perhaps with a boyfriend let alone a husband, perhaps with children, definitely older by then, hopefully of a different occupation that earns so much that it would finally satisfy their requirement, maybe then, maybe, I could visit Pia.


























The Pabasa was quite the success again this year! We spent it at my Aunite Jenny's house which was like a retreat house/condo family unit --super awesome. They have this big porch where almost 50+ people crowded in to celebrate the dinner party with us. It was a fast scene especially it the kitchen, and the stories that exchanged amongst us was the best!
Old friends, relatives, they all came, and we shared short and long conversations with each table, trying to see how everyone's doing for the past year.

(A picture of the actual pabasa inside the house. Pabasa is an Easter event celebrated all over the Philippines. It is popularly coined as Mahal na Araw. It's when we commemorate the death and resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ. We celebrate it during the Holy Week where thousands and thousands of Filipinos travel back to their beloved provinces to celebrate the Holy Week with their loved ones. It's officially a holiday celebration. So for 5 days including the weekend, people could rest and spend time with their families.)

The Pabasa is conducted by singing the actual passages. Some family members have asked me to give it a go! But I've yet to give this unique and sacred task a try; it's basically freestyle, but there's still a general tone that you ought to follow.


(Man beside me: my dad.)











(this is my Nanay. Mother of my mother.)













(the one to my left is my lovely, lovely cousin, Anj. This is her parents' house by the way.)



















(my dad, me and my auntie Jen. Auntie Jen is the mother of cousin Anj. They recently renovated the interiors of their house. Sleek and modern! They got the bar going on at the back, and the family table--all in marble, and the brick accent was just so comfy. I love the chairs, too! There's another dining table at the front, glass.)








(here's another shot of the kitchen; again there's auntie Jen, and this time that's auntie Elvie at my back. I just love love love the tables and the cabinets!)












(these are my grandparents. Nanay Rosario and Tatay Ceferino. I got my second name after my grandmother. My mom said she wanted it that way so we would keep nanay's name living on. In college, I was nicknamed Rose.)








(My relatives got a gazebo for the guests right outside the porch. It was very useful in case it rained (which it did not, hurrah!) By evening, people were everywhere; the entire house and porch and even until outside of the gates.)














(My aunt's place reminds me of the scenery of a Retreat house. You could sit in the porch at sunset, and just watch the sky and the landscape meet together.)






















My cousin Aina, or as I call her Ate Sheen, celebrated her birthday early this April, too. We spent it in Yakimix, at SM North Edsa. We had this table for two groups, only our groups were back to back since misunderstanding from the receptionist got us there. Still, my cousin happily went back and forth, and we still got to bond despite all our schedules.



























(Above, that's me 'offering' my gift to Ate Aina: it's a mere keychain; but it represents the day she was born and all the famous people and events that transpired on that day. Particular designers and actresses were born on her day and 'coincidentally' my cousin is an interior designer and a model. So I guess she was written in the stars before we all knew her.) :) <3

(L-R: Ate Che, Ate Aina and Ate Mary Rose. Behind this dynamic trio is the infamous buffet of Yakimix. I just adore their chandelier.)









(Holding a jelly dessert, that's my cousin Ate Aina. Ate by the way, stands for big sister [for my foreign readers.] I can't help but smile every time I see this picture. Ate Aina, or Ate Sheen as I fondly call her, is the only female relative who could resemble me. I always felt a little more secure knowing that I share my looks with someone else apart from my dad. I mean I feel proud that I've a cousin who's basically like a big sister to me and I don't have a sister so this resemblance makes it feel extra special.






I love how she's changed so much over the year; she's more optimistic, more down-to-earth, ever-more stylish, sexier!!, prettier than ever, and absolutely fabulous. She is a fighter, and an advocate of good change. That's my Ate Aina. :)















The highlight of the month, was the wedding of my dearest Auntie Justine, who said her vows in a beautiful garden at a place they call 'Light of Love' (this was my first time to witness a garden-wedding.)







(me, Auntie Melanie, and Auntie Stephanie) <3
















It was a very interesting day though, at the same day we went to the wedding, we went to a birthday party after, and then 2 wakes!
A wedding, a birthday, and 2 wakes. In some wakes that's I've been to, many of which were celebrated lightly and minus the tearful grievance. I feel somewhat ashamed that in these wakes, the hosts and myself still found the opportunity to laugh and smile about so many topics which gave us the chance to catch up with each other. Because of someone's wake! That's a unique blessing we got there.

We still made it back home before midnight! My parents said this is a first for them, too. The entire day just felt so happy, so blessed, and so lucky. I'm so grateful to God to this unique, happy experience.





(this was my first garden wedding. I love the location; they got the gardens, the ponds, it's like this huge garden place with a reception area inside perfect for couples who want to get married with a grassy landscape, framed by rustic verandas and tall old trees and statues.)










(this is my Auntie Steph, pic shot above. Technically, I'm older than her by a year. However, by family lineage, she's 'older' since her mother is the cousin of my grandfather. That makes her mom my extended grandmother...whom I still call Auntie. Auntie Steph has a younger sister, Melanie, who's around 10 years our junior--whom I am still obliged by our family to call Auntie. She's at the pic above, sandwiched between Auntie Steph and I. Awesome eh.) :)
































(in this shot, L-R: my dad, Auntie Melanie, Aunti Steph, Auntie Jessie, and Uncle Nilo. The rest of the guests unfortunately I do not know.)








(to my right, that's Auntie Jessie, who should be called Lola (grandma) Jessie by family lineage, but (her) preference obliged me to refer to her as one of my titas (aunties). Done! <3






I have to say, despite the late-night sleeping and the poorly planned eating this April (which defeats my healthy plan for 2012), the events that I've witnessed were so far beyond satisfactory, and I know I'll cherish them in my memories.